Love is the way

During the session, self-introduction was required and each person had to state a positive statement. I was amazed that I came up with " Love is the way." Other statements made by others include "No pain, no gain" , " Nothing is impossible", "Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent" and so much more. Simple statements and some of them are cliche. Yet I think it is not easy to live up to the spirit of those statements at times.

The TME worn a pink tie and admitted he felt nervous. I couldn't sense that as he did a really good job. Perhaps he was trying to allay the fears of others. I was slightly nervous but it is normal. No big deal. Can turn the nervous energy into enthusiasm. I learnt a lot by listening too. I heard some nice phrases like " pots of gold at the end of the rainbow". I had never seen the end of a rainbow. My friend, priscilla, used to send me pictures of rainbow and sky from Germany and Perth. Let's walk towards the end of rainbow to find that pots of gold!

I backed off from a gathering last week. My God! My Milo clique. I think I am too superstitious at times and anyhow interpret signs. In Jesus' name, I dropped that! Conflicts are very common, especially without communication. At times, it gave rise to misunderstandings. Lucky me! Two days later was the Pfizer trip. I travelled there by bus 182 since Tuas was near Boonlay interchange. The rest took the school bus. It took an hour. Almost lost my way. I asked for directions from others. The worst thing that could ever happen in life was receiving wrong direction. I was walking in a wrong direction for some time before I enquired from someone on a lorry. Lucky me! The uncle offered the ride and my intuition told me it was ok. Then off i went to the destination. I was visitor 001. The security guard commented that I looked as if I was there for sightseeing or shopping. I did not bring along my wallet and IC. The school bus lost its way and so I sat alone in the room to wait. Finally they came and my friends sat with me. We toured round the company. The tour guide was very interesting. Ya, I think so. Pfizer was in the inner part of Tuas. Another lady told me that it was nearer to Malaysia compared to Singapore. A souvenir of bookmark- leafshaped was given to each person. I like the bus trip back. Not sure of the reason. Inward smile and slight giggle.

I used to have a bus trip back from JB to Singapore. I was so happy that I laughed all the way from one country to another. Hearty laugh.

Equally blessed on that evening.

The following day I went to the gym at Jurong West Sports Complex. Oh no!!! Some of my classmates were there. Funny. What a coincidence! I went to run the treadmill on autopilot mode. I was on it for 40 minutes...

Later in the afternoon I am meeting Cindy to shop for formal clothes. I vented my frustrations to her once and at the end of the conversation I knew one thing. The answer is always within and that I just want a listening ear. I have too much directions from outside that it blocks clarity. I really want understanding and not solutions. So much easier to sort things out on my own. I love her a lot.

I watched Spirit: Stallion of Cimarron last year on vcd. It came to my mind. I think Spirit has a good spirit. I forgot the plot. But I remembered Spirit.

This entry is a little without head and tail! Its body is still there. =)

Blessed soul and spirit,

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